Lyrics

Cold

2007-10-01T00:04:00.000-06:00

Sitting on the cold cement sidewalk
She leans up against the slightly warmer brick wall and sighs.
The rain is still pouring down on the streets as it has been for hours.
It’s too warm inside.

She loves the feel of the wind that comes off a cold rain.
After such a long day
She just needs something to distract her mind.

She wants to feel cold inside
She doesn’t want to feel.
Too many emotions course through her bloodstream
and thinking of him makes it boil

Why do we have to play pretentiously?
and suffer though the guilt’s
Why does our pride always get in the way?

I love the icy rain on my face
Caressing my lips as it melts down
I just want something that will take you off my mind

I want to feel cold inside
I don’t want to feel
Too many emotions course through my bloodstream
and thinking of you makes me cry

I sit on cold benches and walk through frozen gardens
I wish I were the same way,
but the fact that I’m only human
Makes me smile.

Insipid Lie

2007-10-01T00:00:00.000-06:00

We had our own reasons for all of our problems,
But then you never wanted a reason to care.

The space between us, an eternity
Like the closeness of our lips
And the entwining of our fingertips.

You’re standing right next to me,
But I can barely see you,
So far away,
Through the blur of tears

Your time is an embolism
Distill your emotions
Dull and Heavy
This overcast intermezzo

I shiver in the rain,
Your rain.
It’s cold,
How you are now
And I want to be an intelligentsia from our relationship,
If that’s what you can call this insipid lie

Shoot me up with insulin
So I can have the energy to survive these last few days
Of your mental disease you call a game.
I won’t let you toy with my heart any longer.
I’m through.

Your time is an embolism.
Distill your emotions.
Dull and Heavy,
This overcast intermezzo.

A full eclipse of the sun
And my back is turned.
I’ve lost sight of my reasons to fight this.

I’m not giving up or giving in.
I’m letting go.

Loveless

2006-08-27T17:51:00.000-06:00

Silently I stand here
Afraid to even move
A broken promise shattered at my feet
I knew this day would come
Now I pray and hope it rains
As you tell me things that I don’t want to hear

Chorus1
I hope the clouds break soon
And wash away all these tears
I don’t want you to see me cry
The day you say goodbye

Something different in your eyes
Makes me forget to breathe
Tonight I know you’re going to break my heart
What can I say?
I’ll do anything.

Chorus2
I hope the rain comes soon
And washes away my tears
I don’t want you to see me cry
The day you say goodbye

I can feel you drifting now
Far away from me
Pain and darkness slowly fill my soul
You said there’s so much to see, so much to do.
So much that you can never be
With me

Chorus2

I don’t want you to see me cry
The day you say goodbye

Vain Light

2006-01-26T12:21:00.000-07:00

Breathe in me,
breathe me out.
Put my life back in,
put my life back out.

My light is growing dim,
my lamp is burning out.
The pale moon light
seeps through my window pane.

Now I can hear your voice.
It speaks to the air.
I look up to your eyes,
but you wont see me.

Bridge
I know you don’t hear me,
know you feel me,
know you don’t love now,
but I beg you try.
I beg you to stay.

My light is growing dim,
my lamp is burning out.
The deep red hue of your blood
runs over my veins.
Please don’t leave me.

Unrequited Love

2006-01-26T12:19:00.000-07:00

Wishful thinking, an unrequited love,
The yearning desire of my soul.
I guess that’s what you’ll always be . . . to me

As I sit here in my room, thinking of you,
I close my eyes and wonder where you are.
Who might you be dreaming of,
who is it you claim to love?
This inclination says that it‘s not me.

Is that how it’s meant to be?
This longing’s taking over me,
And I imagine you and I becoming one
I don’t think you understand
How I want to hold your hand
And pretend you love me for a little while
Oh what I would give to make you smile

Just to have you here
A moment by your side
Just to feel you near,
I’ve been waiting all this time
If only for a moment,
Please just let me dream
Even if that’s all you are
Please just let me dream

I know you don’t really care
But I can’t watch you standing there
I’ve got to feel you close to me right now
I love you with my heart and soul
But, I can’t stop these tears from falling
Every time I hear you calling
Calling for that girl who isn’t me

Just to have you here
A moment by your side
Just to feel you near,
I’ve been waiting all this time
If only for a moment,
Please just let me dream
Even if that’s all you are
Please just let me dream

This heart of mine’s been broke before
But I can’t take it anymore
I can’t pretend that I don’t love you
It’s killing my soul deep down inside
And I know that I can’t mend it one more time
So please let me pretend your heart is mine
I beg you, please just hold me close tonight

There's A Face

2006-01-26T12:16:00.000-07:00

There's a face.
There's a face in my head.
In my mind there are cobwebs of grey
And lightnings and rain.
My soul I can feel as my heart starts to stop.
I
sit at my window and smile at the rain that's outside.
As it thunders and crashes,
The wind blows my worries away.
The grass turns a deeper shade
As the old oak's swing starts to sway.
There's a light from above,
Yet the clouds are still the darkest grey.
The light soars down and enters my mind through my eyes.
There's a flash and everything fades to....

I can breathe.
I can think when it rains.
I can feel a presence in my head.
My troubled mind.
My distant thoughts.
They can sense
why I need this.
I don't know why,
But I know that they love me for who I am.
I feel them inside of me, my heart falters.

There's a face.
There's a face in my head.
In my mind there are shades of grey
A clear silver moon.
My soul I can feel as my heart starts to stop.

The Traveler

2006-01-26T12:15:00.000-07:00

Its raining
and I’m traveling
all alone.
I’m walking,
slowly walking,
praying for a town to come.

Chorus
I’ve traveled far
with no one here to guide me.
Its been so long
without a friend beside me.

Its raining
and I’m soaked
to the bone
I’m praying,
dearly praying,
hoping for some shelter to come.

Chorus

Bridge
I need some one to hold me tonight .
I need someone to love me in my life,
but I guess that day is still to come

Its raining
and I’m traveling
all alone.
I’m walking,
slowly walking,
praying for my angel to come.

Chorus

They Waited

2006-01-26T12:14:00.000-07:00

I was walking down the lane
on my way home from school.
I’m a million miles away
Thinking ‘bout aliens

Chorus
They’re a million miles away now
That’s to far for me.
Here I do not want to stay now.
They are where I want to be!
I want to fly so far away!
Then maybe I’ll see some aliens.
The maybe I’ll meet those aliens.

As I was in my day dream
I did not see them pass.
I have lost my chance with them now, and I’m glad they’re not the last cause . . .

Chorus

I am going on my way now,
deep into space.
They had waited in their spaceship
to take me too their home.

I’m a million miles away now.
This is so cool to me!
Here I want to stay now,
this is where I want to be.
I don t’ want to go
back to that world I know.
I want to meet more aliens!

Tears Of Blood

2006-01-26T12:13:00.000-07:00

Sorrowful and destitute . . .
I walk this path alone . . .
Forlorn and abandoned . . .
Significance unknown . . .

Will it always be this way?
Must I always cry?
Why can’t you just love me?
Please just tell me why?

Do you really care?
I cry but you’re not there,

And when it comes to me,
You look right past, you do not see,
As I sit here crying tears of blood for you.

Soap Opera

2006-01-26T12:06:00.000-07:00

So, uh, I like this guy,
but he "loves" this girl,
and she likes some other dude,
And Of course he likes somebody else,
who just so happens to have a Boyfriend.
Sad but true.

Ya know, I really like you,
my other friends do too,
you've got 3 girls stalking you.
Oh what’s a guy to do?

Yeah my mom got me a car
But I don’t have a license
and I cant drive a stick
And even If I could,
it’s not like I’ve got anywhere to go

I’m calling to give you the newest info
on the insanity that is my life
You claim that you don’t really care
But I know you’ve got a heart Somewhere,
or . . . I think . . . Or . . . Ya know . . . not

So now my social life consists of
A bunch of raving lunatics
Coming to my house all night
To watch some TV shows
Pathetic? Oh Yes, we know.

Hello there dear sweet friend of mine
You know, you’re the sane one here
So why do forgo the norm?
And choose instead a padded wall?
Maybe you’re crazy after all.

You claim to be a soul undead
Or at least half anyway
You have a tendency to be disturbed
At lights and well um everything
No, I don’t want you to bite me.

Oh the questions haunt me so like:
when did my life get so weird?
And Since when did I have friends?
what is the purpose of this moronic song?
It just keeps going on and on!

Does A D H D mean anything to you
As you leap across the room
And growl at my best friend
Then jump back in your seat again
Ever heard of Ritalin?

You named your car after a song
Written by your favorite band
You know everything to know
About this band so dear to you
And then some, that’s kinda creepy

Yeah that just about sums it up.
my life is nuts do you disagree?
No? good. Because if you did I’d have to
Slap you across the face and laugh
Hysterically As you writhe in pain
What’s that? Yes I am quite insane.

Same Old Song

2006-01-26T12:05:00.000-07:00

I sit here at my piano
Playing this same old song
I'm wondering what you would say
If you saw me here singing this song for you

I've realized that I was wrong
You seemed to know it all along
Now there's nothing left to say but goodbye

The sky is growing dim
As the clouds kiss the earth
This fog fills my mind
But your face is still clear

Tho my words have been poetic and strong
I ended up sounding pathetic
And when my desire burned like an endless fire
You left me alone to stand
Smoldering in this cold rain

I sit here at my piano
Playing this same old song
I'm wondering what you would say
If you saw me here singing this song for you

Road Kill

2006-01-26T12:02:00.000-07:00

"Curiosity killed the cat."
That's what many say,
it killed the cat....

So I guess I don't want to be a stupid cat,
cause I'd rather live a while longerand
I'd don't want to live knowing
that I should be dead.

"Why did the chicken cross the road?"
Did it want to get hit by a semi?
Unless you live in Idaho or Montana,
you're bound to get plowed down into the dust.
Don't that feel great?

So I guess I don't want to be a stupid chicken,
cause I'd rather live a while longer
and I'd don't want to live knowing
that I should be dead.

So I guess I don't want to be Road Kill!
Cause I'd rather live a while longer
So I'll always look both ways
before crossing a road.
You know it is for our benefit that
rules were invented.

Lucky Girl

2006-01-26T12:00:00.000-07:00

You're a lucky girl.
I loved him first,
But you won his heart.

The first time I saw him,
My breath got taken away.
I loved him secretly,
Blushing every time
He would brush against me.

I dreamt about/of him day and night,
Longing for him to notice me.

There was a time you didn't care.
I saw him crying,
Lonely on a park bench.
I sat next to him,
Caring I held him.

He looked at me,
And gazed into my eyes.
He said he loved You.
He said he missed You.
He wrapped his arms around me and cried.
I cried.

You're a lucky girl.
Don't you see what you have?
This boy, THIS Boy loves you.
And though I love him,
His heart only knows your name.
You're a lucky girl.
Lucky girl.

Let Every Word Sink in

2006-01-26T11:58:00.000-07:00

Chorus
Let every word sink in,
Down into the depths of your soul.
Let every heartbeat sound
In the ear of the deaf,
And let every blindman see
What cannot be seen.

Choose only one way,
The wrong or the right.
Either way you have
A fifty-fifty chance of survival.

Do you trust me?
I can see the hesitation in your eyes.
Doubtful are you?
Just listen to me,
Breathe in every word I say.
Think logically now.

Chorus

Mathematics, Science, Foreign languages.
Are these just words?
Is there a deeper meaning?
Love, hate, grief, happiness.
Are these just words?
You say them,
But have you ever stopped to think
Of what they really mean?

Chorus 2
Let every word sink in,
Down into the depths of your soul.
Let every heartbeat sound
In the ear of the deaf,
And let every blindman see.
Let everyone be free!

Illusion of a Nightmare

2006-01-26T11:54:00.000-07:00

As I drift off into the oblivion of my slumber,
I am still thinking of you.
Haunted by your eyes,
I am longing for your lips.
I need solitude from this pain you put me through.
What is this feeling
Deep down inside?
How can I erase this horror
You've so ‘kindly' placed in my mind?

(Come vado alla deriva via nell'oblio del mio sonno,
penso tuttavia di lei.
Perseguitato dai suoi occhi,
longing per le sue labbra.
Ho bisogno dellasolitudine da questo dolore lei me mette attraverso.
In che questo sente profondamente?
Come posso cancellare quest'orrore che Lei Ha cosí ‘gentilmente'collocato nella mia mente?)

Can't you see me?
Can't you hear my open cries?
Don't you hear me screaming?
Won't you save me from this illusion of a nightmare I've become?

(Lei non può vederme?
Lei non può sentire I miei pianti aperti?
Lei non me sente gridando?
Lei non me risparmierà da quest'illusione di un incubo che sono diventato?)
I
'm a monster, so they tell me.
Am I a demon, or a freak?
Am I a ghostly visage in phantom's clothing, hiding from all who see?
To everyone I'm just another shadow, a mirage.
In this dream I find that I am an invisible shade of air;
To you I am... nothing.

(Sono un mostro, dunque me dicono.
Sono un demone, o un'anomalia?
Sono un visage fantasma nell'abbigliamento del fantasma, nascondendo da tutto che vede?
A tutti sono appena un'altra ombra, un miraggio.
Non niente in questo sogno trovo che sono un'ombra invisibile di aria; A lei sono... )

Can't you see me?
Can't you hear my open cries?
Don't you hear me screaming?
Won't you save me from this illusion of a nightmare I've become?
This Illusion of a Nightmare
nightmare
nightmare
nightmare
(echo to fade)

Firefly

2006-01-26T11:45:00.000-07:00

What's the last thing I can say?
Is it better when I look away?
The long silence fills my tears,
And you... you just stand there
Acknowledging my fears.
Why are we this way?
this is terrifying.
Inside I am dying.

Firefly
Spread your wings and die.
Firefly
You're so lovely when you light up the sky.
Firefly
Take me to that resting place.

Train stations' black.
One way ticket's are all I've got.
Stack ‘em like a house of cards.
Sitting here waiting vacantly.
The dark, the cold.

Firefly
Spread your wings and die.
Firefly
You're so lovely when you light up the sky.
Firefly
Take me to that resting place, collapse.
Firefly.

Faded Dreams

2006-01-26T11:44:00.000-07:00

There are no words I can say to make you listen.
No words to make you understand.
You don't care, you're cold now.
You just don't feel.

Faded away are my dreams.
Gone are the nights you cared.
Even though I may try to hang on,
You've already slipped through my fingers.
You say you're unable to care, unable to feel.
You don't dare, you're too scared.
I know you're just afraid of love.

Evolution

2006-01-26T11:43:00.000-07:00

Evolution in the night

A smiling moon peers down upon us.
We hear a howl in the distance
These mountains loom before us.
Evolution has begun!

Chord sequence

In a world like this,
things never stay the same.
Our lives are always changing.
Evolution is bound to come.

Chord sequence

With a life like this,
no two can be the same.
With all these many choices
who can we blame?

Chord sequence

Evolution in the night.
Evolution has begun!

Chord sequence

Dream Away

2006-01-26T11:42:00.000-07:00

As I am dreaming,
I wander on my own.
Thinking of someone
Who left me all alone,
All alone

In my dreaming
I wander all alone.
Looking for something
For my very own.

Chorus

Dream.
Dream away!
Dream for yesterday.
Yesterday.
Dream away!

To dream,
Fall asleep . . .
Falling cannot stop.
Stop this feeling
That something could
Go wrong.
I cannot feel!
What is wrong with me?

Chorus

Dream-dream far away.
Dream-dream for today!
No more shall we live in The past.
So dream away!

Chorus

Deep Red Roses

2006-01-26T11:41:00.000-07:00

Deep red roses in winter time.
These roses hang o’er my grave.
Petals falling down.
The roses are dying.

Seascapes and star light
Black velvety sky
The oceans hold a secret.
The ocean is my grave.

Bridge:

As I look out my window,
Now I see your sorrow.
Please don’t shed a tear.
And smile, once just for me.
Destroy all your anguish,
Life will go on.
Even though I’m dead and gone.
I’m gone.

Deep red roses in winter time.
These roses hang o’er my grave.
Petals falling down.
The roses are dying.

Seascapes and star light
Black velvety sky
The oceans hold a secret.
I am a red rose.

Dark October (In Progress)

2006-01-26T11:39:00.000-07:00

Walking down the lonely boardwalk
I hear something sigh my name.
It’s a Desolate dark October,
just like when you said goodbye.

The daylight is fading slowly
but my love for you lingers on . . .
You stole my heart and left my crying,
standing broken all alone . . .

A perfect rose, stripped of it’s petals
scattered by the cruel and icy wind,
drift upon a placid lake where
the ripples echo on

Cry

2006-01-26T11:38:00.000-07:00

I can't stand to cry
When you're around.
I don't want you to know
That I'm weak.
You know it hurts so bad
Every time you get mad.

Bridge

The dawn is rising.
I lean against you
Locked in your embrace....
My heart is failing.
You don't seem to care
That I am dying tonight.
You just want to hold me one last time.
Please don't forget my face.

13 Ex Clown Dance (In Progress)

2006-01-26T11:30:00.000-07:00

The doors slam shut behind you and you can't move.
In the drkness you can hear that you're not alone.
They're all here in this unfamiliar room WITH YOU.
One of them speaks to you, calling you by name...And you gasp, clutching/clinging to yourself.

"You know we know why you're here.
You can't escape now if you wanted.
You thought this place couldn't be haunted?"
Neon lights fill the room
Exposing you on center stage
Surrounded by the 13 ex Circus Clowns.

And they start to dance
And they start to jive
They laugh at you,
Circling around you,
As you become entranced by this,
THE CLOWN DANCE.

1.. 2.. 3.. 4.. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12
13 Clowns a dancing.
They flop their heels
And they giggle their hips
And they bob their heads
In time with the music.
And they dance around
And they sing along
And they jeer at you.

Then you yell STOP!
And they stop and stare at you.
You slyly smile.
And you Dance.
Tap, tap, tap, SLAP!
They smile and join you.
And you'll all dance
THE (new) CLOWN DANCE.

And you dance around
And you sing along
And they laugh with you.
Dancing the night away.

When you wake up the next morning,
You're lying on the cold cement floor.
Sitting up, Confused?
Standing up, Walk out of the door.
Shivers
Don't know where I am.